girls, have you seen this film?

it is incredible.

no, really, i mean it.

because a coming-of-age story as such hits home to girls who let themselves be made prey by married thirty-something men. you are young. you are impressionable. you are vulnerable. and in him, lie answers to questions you never before thought to ask. right?

or maybe it is just incredible to me. a girl who's coming-of-age story involved letting herself be made prey by a married thirty-something man. because i was young. and i was impressionable. and i was vulnerable. and in him lay the answers to questions i never before thought to ask and afterwards wished that i hadn't. 

and about carey mulligan's performance? ::stands and applauds::

most poignantly? in jenny we see that it isn't only the vapid and vacuous that are susceptible to the sweet nothings of romance. naïveté cannot be unlearned with books. 

i kind of love you.
so i punish you.
and you punish me for punishing you.
and we live it out [a tragic little comedy. our tragicomedy]. 

<this isn't supposed to make sense>

i once wore an american apparel shirt to an alternative apparel casting. ok, i twice wore an american apparel shirt to an alternative apparel casting. the owner noted my faux pas. i don't think my ignorance was pardoned. 

i kind of love you.
or i kind of love you loving me
(although you know that i cannot [yet?] love you
the way you would like to be loved). 
perhaps i am waiting for someone else
[to kind of love me too]
so that i can finally say,
'i win. you can love. you see?? you are, right now!' 

<this isn't supposed to make sense, do you see that now?>

did you know that red lips stain while black lips do not? no matter how hard i might scrub, i still wake up to find plum-red markings on my pillowcases and my sheets. but black lipstick is gone from my lips with a simple swipe of an olive oil soaked tissue. of course, it could also be due to the fact that my black lipstick isn't lipstick at all: it's eyeliner. 

i kind of love you.
but for now,
i only know how to kind of love you from afar.
and completely love you perhaps not at all.
and
i'm sorry.

I don't know who Bruno Mars is (also, I do not care), but he has the cutest vocals ever. And by "ever", I mean they are cute enough to make me only want to change the radio station 50% of the times that this B.o.B song comes on. I love the whole "stop-motion meets paper cut-out" thing in this video. Your thoughts?

And again, KiD CuDi continues to spread into my psyche, like that rash on Trina's hooha. So even though every time I download a CuDi song, I listen to it then immediately ask myself why I downloaded it, this Ratatat and MGMT-touched song, I like. And the alternate video version of "Pursuit of Happiness" definitely tells the first version to suck it. 

[spotted over at Miss Info]

i love you all. i promise i will have more to say soon...

nicholas kirkwood x rodarte... match made in shoe HEAVEN! my favourites? the lavender-heeled beauties below. there is something deliciously grotesque about the "dripping candle wax + reptilian texture" mix... these shoes are for play. loads and loads of fashion-forward play...

[spotted over at fashion indie]

i can deal with the ford modeling contract and the various magazine editorial spreads. i can deal with the fame and the fortune, all earned simply from being kanye west's arm candy. but when you drag grace into this, it gets personal. i let it slide before, but this time... 

this is some ol' BULLSH!T, kanye. and while i love you to death and  think amber rose is gorgeous, she is no Grace Jones. period. 

MAYBE my cuntiness arises because i happen to be of the opinion that the only person who should be recreating Grace Jones poses is ME... but i'm completely ok with that. #shade.

[image via kanye's new blog]

or, at least, that you're not supposed to have. 

naturally, you want him anyway. even though you aren't quite sure whether his touch sets your skin afire because you so desire him, or if your fascination stems from the simple fact that he should be forbidden to you and you to he... 

but knowing all of that and having weighed (or not weighed) the consequences, here you stand anyway. a half eaten fruit from the tree of the knowledge of good and evil lies at your feet. and you're wondering where to hide, lest you be cast out of eden. 

KANYE WEST "Coldest Winter" Directed by: NABIL "ITUNES link below" from nabil elderkin on Vimeo.

am completely mesmerized by this video. eery, poetic... do you love it as much as i do?? i do wish that kanye had been the main ghoul that was chasing the girl though, and lifted his mask at the end to reveal that.